Please
let it be the second drawer.
Please let it be the second drawer.
Please let it be the second drawer.
Please let it be the second drawer.
Please let it be the second drawer.
I
repeated the mantra knowing full well he would be in the top drawer
where he kept his implements of torture. There would be no pleasure
tonight. He was not pleased with me.
Something
metallic clunked on top of the dresser, but he wasn't done. I could
hear the scraping of things being pushed around as he looked for what
he wanted. It had to have been something we hadn't used in a while. I hoped it wouldn't be the cane. I absolutely hated the cane, but I knew it was something that would make me truly regret
what I had done.
I could feel stuff being lined up on the bed now. I
craned my head in a useless gesture to see. I hated being
blindfolded. I hated not knowing. Maybe that was why he punished me
this way. His
hands pushed my butt cheeks apart and something cold and hard was worked
inside me. I groaned as the unforgiving metal pushed my anal muscles
wider than they were meant to go.
“Silence,”
he said.
Suddenly my breathing felt like an effort as my heart cracked open just a bit. I
could tell by his tone that he was even more upset with me than I had
originally thought, and I absolutely hated disappointing him. I
wouldn't disappoint him again. I would take my punishment in silence,
but I couldn't stop the stream of tears that were now soaking my
blindfold.
The
plug expanded me and made my muscles ache. I absorbed the pain because I knew this was only the beginning. For a while I lay there waiting
and wondering what would be coming next. I often believed he delayed
like this on purpose. I imagined him standing over me and watching me squirm as
my anxiety was building. After a while the ache in my backside was becoming
unbearable. I squeezed my bum to try and relieve it, and the moment I
let go of the tension it came.
Crack.
Crack. Crack.
It was definitely the cane. The searing pain begged to be released through my mouth as I bit down on my pillow. I
grabbed the sheets in my fists and took several deep breaths to keep
from crying out. He wanted me silent. There was a fire starting on
the lower half of my body as the lashes kept coming. I focused on my
breathing, but it was getting harder. I couldn't take the pain. It
was just too much. I was about to cry out when it stopped. I sobbed
softly into the pillow, pulling myself together for the next round I
knew would come soon.
“Next you are told to do something, you will do it promptly and without balking.”
“Yes,
Master.”
I
had barely replied when it started again. I wasn't even sure he heard
me, as softly as I spoke. It didn't take as long for the pain to
build this time. I knew immediately that he had switched implements
because this one didn't make much noise, but it left me feeling as if I had been stung by hundreds of bees as once
each time it made contact with my already sensitive skin. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. It was much worse than the cane. I would take the cane one hundred times over if it meant I'd never have to feel this pain again.
I
couldn't hold back any more. I tried to constrict my throat to stop
it, but the scream pushed its way through. I fought against my
restraints now. I think I even begged him to stop, although I don't
recall actually saying the words. I needed it to stop now. I learned
my lesson. I would remember to do as I was told from now on.
He
didn't stop, though, and I could no longer fight. I felt my body mold
to the bed. I could no longer cry out. I just let the tears fall and
accepted my fate. I deserved this, and I needed it. I needed it so I
would remember to never disappoint him again. I needed it so I would
be free of the guilt I felt.
So
I welcomed the pain now. I absorbed it and made it a part of me. I
let it wash through me.
I
didn't realize it stopped until I felt him untying my legs and
positioning me so that I was on my knees. He pushed my knees apart, and I felt him settle between
my legs. This would be for him, and I would get no pleasure from this
taking.
I whimpered softly as I felt him filling me. He didn't give me time
to adjust as he thrust hard and deep. Despite the fact that I wasn't
meant to enjoy this I could feel the arousal building, but I gave it
all to him. He grunted loudly as he slammed into me one last time.
Without
a word, he finished untying me and took off the blindfold, then
guided my tear streaked face toward his crotch. I gently licked him clean, and savored the saltiness of my tears and our combined juices. Normally this was not something I enjoyed, but
somehow this gesture felt like a sign of forgiveness. I relished in
my absolution and smiled when I heard him moan in pleasure. Tears of
anguish turned to solace as I felt his fingers run lovingly through
my hair.
He
was no longer angry.